Some Strange Music Draws Me In by Griffin Hansbury
Author:Griffin Hansbury
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: W. W. Norton & Company
Published: 2024-04-15T00:00:00+00:00
2019
Dakota and I are going through my closet. Sheâs supposed to be helping sort and trash, but sheâs fascinated by my photo albums. She canât believe thatâs really me, with the baby face and all that hair, a kid around Dakotaâs age, trying to figure it out. I struggle to recognize myself. I thought I was overweight, but the photos show an average-Âsized kid. How did I get it so wrong? Iâm probably getting it wrong now. Do we ever get to enjoy our bodies while we live in them? At breakfast today, Dakota was talking about bathing suits. She wants a new one, she told Donna, a one-Âpiece, because last summer she had a two-Âpiece and, âEveryone was staring at me. It was like boom-Âbada-Âboom-Âboom.â When I asked her to clarify, she said, âI have boobs, Uncle Max.â Donna made an unkind comment and I felt bad for the kid, having to endure the pains of adolescence under the cloud of my sisterâs disgruntlement. I wish she had another option, but sheâll survive, I tell myself. Like I survived. We all have to fight our own battles.
Dakota plops to the closet floor and tugs at a dresser drawer so crammed with stuff, she has to prop her foot against the frame and wrench it open. When she pulls out my Michael Jackson âBeat Itâ jacket, red vinyl slashed with silver zippers, she slips it on and dances around, mimicking the moves that have survived three decades, embedded in the DNA of pop, despite the revelations of child abuse. What does Michaelâs downfall mean to those of us who invested our first experience of erotic love with him? Were we collectively groomed as children? I still listen to his music.
âItâs so retro,â Dakota says, hugging the jacket to her. âCan I keep it?â
âPut it in the trash.â
âBut why? Itâs super cool.â
I hold open the garbage bag and give it a shake. âHeâs been canceled,â I say.
She huffs and drops the jacket to the floor. I put it in the bag, followed by more devalued memorabilia, buttons and bubblegum cards, the doll I thought would be a collectorâs item, the one I undressed to see what Michael had underneath, finding only smooth plastic. Love, I think, is inscrutable.
âWho are you into?â I ask Dakota. âWhoâs cool these days? Justin Bieber?â
âEeew,â she says, âGross! Heâs super disgusting.â
âYouâre twelve. There must be someone.â
âMy favorite YouTuber is Jeffree Star,â Dakota says. âYas, honey!â She raises a hand in the air and snaps her fingers like a drag queen. Jeffree Star, she explains, is a gay YouTube celebrity, famous for applying elaborate contouring makeup to his face. She shows me a video on her cracked phone. I donât care for the contouring trend. It makes everyone look like an avatar, too cartoonish to be human.
âHe looks like one of those Kardashian people,â I say.
âOh my god,â Dakota gasps. âI hate the Kardashians! You can tell how Kylieâs lips are fake and Kimâs butt is fake. I donât know which one is worser.
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